I have an audition at 6:20 tonight. I think I'm starting to get nervous. I wouldn't be so nervous if Colby hadn't sent me more sides, and tried to give me pointers on how to audition. Now I feel like I'm going to go in there and be the worst. Atleast if I read it cold, I couldn't get yelled at for doing it wrong, but now that I have an idea of what they're looking for, I feel like I'm going to screw it all up.

Dammit.

It's even worse that Colby is excited to see me 'acting' cause he says he hasn't yet. But just because we're friends, doesn't mean I'm good. So I'm really worried about sucking big time in front of him, when I've had all these other chances in life to hear that I'm no good and no one has told me.

Atleast, I have people excited about my photoshoot. I guess I'm getting excited too, cause now I want to do stuff like supermodel shots, and crazy anime shots.

And this is where I'd hyperventilate. I shouldn't be nervous. I wasn't nervous saturday, because it didn't mean anything, this audition was no big deal. If I made it, good, if not, no big loss, but now I'm going to be judged, but a friend. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I can't...breathe...that's a lie, i can, I'm just nervous..