Spent some days in Michigan. Did lots of thrift store shopping.

First night I was there, I looked at my bed, the one by the window, and the first thought that came to me, 'I was sitting there, staring out the window at night, during my 17th Birthday, thinking of Bill.' Only goes to show that there is a gap now. I don't think about him. Which is good and bad.

I don't know why I'm online so much. I guess I both love and hate it. AIM even moreso. I'm signed on as much as possible, but I never talk to anyone. It doesn't hold the same thrill it used to. I guess I'm not that hard up to socialize. It's not even that, either. Last night I thought about how I don't have a boyfriend, and might not for awhile, and it didn't bother me at all. I can't really see myself meeting someone new and actually hooking up with them. I don't even want to. Unless it's Dream Guy. But, I guess you could say sanity took over, cause he's becoming the distant memory as well.

I'm not too excited about going to my new job tonight, but at the same time, I know I need the money. I'd rather be checking out the studio where my photoshoot will be, and talking to Daniel. Not happening though, unless I get out of work REALLY early. Which, also, probably won't happen.

After I drove my mom to school this morning, I drove past where Dave Ramirez used to live. I pictured myself randomly passing him, on the street, and having this moment. We must have been in seperate cars, because we couldn't really talk, but I told him to get my info from Pat. So we could talk. When I thought about it. I began to wonder if Pat would even be able to pass it along. I'm sure he knows how to get in touch with me, if need be, but it's not something he does.

Was talking to Lillard last night. He said that Zac IMed him and told him to tell me hi. Weird. Considering Zac should be able to say this to me, but then again, I probably don't have his SN. Lillard and I were also talking about how we don't seem to talk to anyone anymore. That's what people you meet become- people you knew. Right now, I've got my buddylist cut down to 57 people. Anymoney says I could easily trim it to 20 and still be ok. I should. It's probably not healthy to think so and so might actually want to talk to me. I don't have self-esteem problems, I just live in the Time dimention, and so what's relevant to me, is out of order for others.

Charity still has my movie, and I'd like to watch it. =/