So, I just got off the phone with James, and I'm a little sniffly. He started asking me about Dustin, in an attempt to move my relationship with James to some different ground, and I started tearing up. I hate this. I meet someone really fun to talk to, hang out with, listens to great music, and he wants a relationship, and I just need a friend.
I need a friend so badly I'm going to cry myself to sleep.

I'm going to think about the text messages I got tonight, and cry, because they're mostly all from people who like me.

Is this what I see in Eric? Someone who doesn't like me? Someone I could hang out with and it doesn't have to turn to let's get together?

I don't mean to take this all for granted, or sound whiny, or gift horse/mouth, whatever, but I'm really really torn up inside. I just want to cry, and be alone, because there isn't just a some one who doesn't want to be my someone out there. I'm done with love. I'm done with romantic notions. I just want a hug and a laugh. And a hand holding a box of kleenex and my own.